decision made TT

for my vr own gd, i ve make a vr important decision.a decision tat will affect my life n happiness.it's reali important, n i ve to be cruel to myself when im deciding.

i think im not going to bring my laptop bec to kmp.for a week, or mor.

TT it's hard u noe to make such a decision.ya, it's funny i noe..but as moz of the ppl think tat im a "internet crazy lover" (facebook?), im actually killing myself by doing such a plan.im juz torturing myself.

but as wat i ve written above,it's for y own good.for the sake of my PSPM.for the sake of 4flat tat i wan.for the sake of a place in um accounting course.for the sake of my parents.for the sake of........

so...decision made.juz made.

^^

kaka
today is the 5th day of ramadhan.
non of my business actually.
but muslims puasa make me eat even mor den usual~
everyday 10++ in the morning i ll told my fren 2 things
"i wana zZZ"
"i wana eat" / "im hungry!!"
den now every afternoon i ll go bec to my small small room n have my lunch infront of my roomate
malays for sure
hahaha
sry for tat
i dun meant it
but juz im reali reali reali reali H-U-N-G-R-Y !
maggi + gardenier
den at 3 pm i ll repeat
"i wana eat" / "im hungry!!"
sry to 3 tat sit wif me in lecture
owayz get disturbed
kaka

today quite happy during dinner
nth in the bazaar
juz sum kind of kuih n food v nt interest in it
so v hv our dinner in cafe A as usual
luckily today those cats din cum to find me
onot i ll nvr go cafe A again unless those wicked cats gone
quite full after hving a plate of *rice* wif vege
long time din eat vege d n rice too ==
so satisfying kaka~
v din go bec after dinner coz it's still early
juz +- 17.30
so
v continued chat n chat n chat at cafe A
poor aitheng owayz get bullied by us.
5 vs 1
she sure lose
v laugh much by tat time
yin said the wrinkle will grow mor when v wake up tmr
nah~i dun care
hahaha
mayb tat will make me look older/mor mature XD

at 18.35
v still dun wan to bec to our room
so v hv a walk around kmp
wow
long long time din walk like dis d
duno y
abit excited
den suddenly..
R-A-I-N
juz sum small droplets
not heavy rain
but thr's sumone scared to fall sick again
so she walked damn fast ==
v cant even catch up or go near her
gd
she finally noes how to take care of herself ^^

time comes n go
v still nid to go bec to our vr own room







V
continue eating

残忍?坚强?冷血?独立?

最近好多人生病了,在课堂上不是打喷嚏的声音就是有人咳嗽,听到都会怕.但懒得戴口罩 ==

爱婷今天才病假回来,明天宜螢又要回去了.唉.她又生病了.是的,"又"生病了.其实是老毛病啦,花粉症喔.眼睛都红红的,眼泛泪光..看了几心疼下,我的曾孙哦~老是生病要看医生..唉.生病,到头来,都只是想回家最主要的借口.她们--都很想家,想家都想到哭了.

几夸张下的,因为不止一个人酱子,一个就有够神的了..可是我不会喔.不会说特别想家,只是不想读书XD

来了这边都快三个月了吧(超过?),也不是说没哭过,但很少啦.通常不会让人看见.很少会崩溃,最后一次应该是考试前.考试前的我特别特别的情绪化,是考试前神经紧张症候群吧,感觉心情总是起伏不定..扯远了~

在她们眼里,我也算是蛮自立的.不会整天嚷着要回家,不会哭,成天一副嬉皮笑脸,好像什么烦恼都没有似的..咔咔..其实我也只是普普通通,平平凡凡的一个"人",是人就会有感觉,会高兴会伤心,会兴奋会失落.....

我只是学会了掩饰自己..

身为家里的老么,我实在有够独立的了.真的.如果拿这边其他的"小朋友"来比较的话.可是话酱说起来有点残忍,好像说我对家一点眷恋都没有.

有吗?有的.只是..或许是从小就被"捆绑"的关系,离家出走的观念在我脑海里深深的植入,现在有机会光明正大"离家出走",当然...咯. 哇哈哈~

但,我始终相信一句话:






家,是温暖的.